I think my mind wanders more during the busy season. For me, this usually means that I am in school, working a full time job, and being a full time parent + husband. I suppose my mind would rather daydream than figure out statistics. That’s all of us though, right?
Lately, I have been thinking about how much
time I spend doing things other than spending time with my family. I think about how much time I spend
stuck on the freeway in traffic or how much time I spend at work. I think about how much time I spend
studying for school, or stressing about my assignments. I think about the money my wife and I
must make to keep everything moving forward while staying out of the red.
When I think about all of the time I spend in
the pursuit of superficial things, I have to admit it’s
a little depressing. If all of
these responsibilities just disappeared, how much more time would I be able to
spend with my kids and my wife?
How much more time would I be able to nurture great relationships with
all of them?
Bear with me. This is MY world for a brief moment in time.
My daydreams show me (us) living in a Swiss Family
Robinson’esque
treehouse in some desolate forest, away from the rest of the world. Or maybe one of the little Hobbit holes
from the Shire. We’d
live off the land. Harvest our own
crops, bring home fresh game for the stove. No cell phones, no bills. No cars, no gas.
No crime, no locks. No boys who would court my
daughters...
I hate the idea of turning my children loose in
this world. There! I said it!
I am already heartbroken for them. I don’t want them to
experience pain, defeat, loss, suffering, ridicule, and all the rest of the bad
we are so good at providing others.
And then I come to. I wake up. I
snap back to reality.
I’ve never been one for pity-parties. I’m certainly a lot tougher than
that. We buckle in for the
ride. We rub a little dirt on
it. Put duct tape over the wound. Crack our fingers and we’re
right back at it. Because that’s
what we do.
I’ve got all the answers. That’s what I tell myself. Funny thing is, I am terrible at
implementing my own advice into my life.
I am sure most of you can relate.
I love thinking about these things. These places. My little make-believe realities. They are like mini-vacations throughout the day. I find comfort there. My family is safe.
Here is my reality. My log house in the woods exists. And I’ll be there with my
family, eventually. We all get
there one way or the other. Where you at?
Thanks for listening to a little randomness.
Steven
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes,
and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor
pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21 v. 4
“But, as it is written, “What no eye has seen,
nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those
who love him..”
1 Corinthians 2 v. 9
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